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Angelgirl21, 15

I used to be a happy person from the time I got up to the time I went to bed. Now when I get home from school, no one else is home and I feel alone. I feel like no one is there to talk to. I get sad and find myself staring out the window waiting for something. I ask myself a lot; what am I doing? What am I looking for? Maybe I am depressed a little. I wish I could talk to my best friend, but she is grounded. No one else would understand me like she does. I find myself pulling myself into small balls when I am sad. I like small spaces. What makes the feeling of being alone even worse is I hide it all too well. No one suspects a thing. I am happy around people, but when I am alone, I am alone.

My boyfriend does not know about this either. He walks home with me every day, but he does not know. I never used to be this way. I hate the way I feel. I just want it to stop. I want to feel like me again. I feel like I am losing myself. I do not want to lose myself. Sometimes I wish I could just cry. I just want to cry.

Whats it Mean ?

  • Angelgirl21, it is natural to feel depressed and lonely every now and then. Since your hormones are going through many changes, you moods might be affected. It is good you are acknowledging your feelings and you are hiding them from those who love you.
  • Please consider talking to your parents about your loneliness. Perhaps you could suggest you call them when you get home from school. Try asking if a friend could stay with you until they get home.
  • Try talking to your boyfriend about your feelings. Since he walks home with you every day, he might be able to talk with you about what you are feeling. Try asking if he has ever felt this way and how he deals with it. Once your friend is done with her grounding, try talking to her about this too. Turning the people you trust might get you some relief to know you are not alone.
  • Perhaps you could talk to a counselor. A counselor could help you understand why you are feeling depressed and lonely from an objective point of view. Try discussing when you began feeling this way, your diet and any events that might have caused loneliness and depression. They might recommend treatment, but it might help you feel better.
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