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MDD1994, 18

I feel kind of bad because the other night I was having a really really bad night. I ended up just punching my arm about five times. It's bruised, but doesn't hurt or anything. I don't know how to tell my psychologist that when I go back on the 10th. I know he will probably ask if I had any thoughts of suicide and hurting myself because that is why they changed my medications. I want to answer truthfully because I know that that is the right thing to do. I just don't know how. I am afraid that he may try to involuntarily hospitalize me because I know how I will commit suicide if I ever feel bad enough. I have had a few times that I was about to make my car go off the road because I just felt numb. I don't have a specific plan of when, but I do for the how. For all I know, the next time I have a really really bad day, I may complete it. I hope not but am afraid that I will. Any suggestions?

Whats it Mean ?

  • MDD1994, it is good that you know that answering truthfully to your psychologist is the right thing to do.
  • You may want to tell your psychologist everything that you are thinking and feeling, including your thoughts about involuntarily being hospitalized.
  • The more that your psychologist knows, the better he may be able to help you.
  • You may want to consider calling Child-Help USA at 1-800-422-4453 (24 hour toll free) to get help.
  • When you have a really really bad night, try to cope without harming yourself. Perhaps you could try punching a pillow instead of your arm, writing, or talking to someone you trust.
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