jkbpowerof3, 16
Ok, so I like this guy. Well actually "like" would be an understatement. I would say I love him as much as any 16 year old girl can fathom the concept of love, but I feel like it might be dangerous. Not because he is abusive or anything but because it is an obsession. I have a very addictive personality, and I can not seem to let go of this guy. When I was a freshman, we had a fling. It was very short-lived, but I can not stop reliving it. He wants nothing to do with me, an I do not really blame him. He thinks that I am kind of a stalker (just to be clear, I have never physically stalked him, over Facebook I definitely have, but I have not legitimately followed him around or anything) because I wrote him this love letter. It just really scares me that I am so attached to this boy who, in all reality, could not care less about me and has not for some time. It was like a 1-2 week fling my freshman year, so shouldn't I be over this guy now that I am going into my junior year? And I have tried to get over this kid, and I have had rebound after rebound, but nobody compares. It kills me because I know that it is done and over, like for good, and there is pretty much no point in trying to get him back or whatever, but I can not let go. I do not want to be a lonely old cat lady because nobody could ever match up to a guy I had a two week fling with when I was a naive freshman girl. I am just out of ideas at this point.
Ok, so I like this guy. Well actually "like" would be an understatement. I would say I love him as much as any 16 year old girl can fathom the concept of love, but I feel like it might be dangerous. Not because he is abusive or anything but because it is an obsession. I have a very addictive personality, and I can not seem to let go of this guy. When I was a freshman, we had a fling. It was very short-lived, but I can not stop reliving it. He wants nothing to do with me, an I do not really blame him. He thinks that I am kind of a stalker (just to be clear, I have never physically stalked him, over Facebook I definitely have, but I have not legitimately followed him around or anything) because I wrote him this love letter. It just really scares me that I am so attached to this boy who, in all reality, could not care less about me and has not for some time. It was like a 1-2 week fling my freshman year, so shouldn't I be over this guy now that I am going into my junior year? And I have tried to get over this kid, and I have had rebound after rebound, but nobody compares. It kills me because I know that it is done and over, like for good, and there is pretty much no point in trying to get him back or whatever, but I can not let go. I do not want to be a lonely old cat lady because nobody could ever match up to a guy I had a two week fling with when I was a naive freshman girl. I am just out of ideas at this point.
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