Kirs29ty, 14
I have been trying to be more sociable but it's as if I can't. I can't keep a conversation going without talking about more what I like in repetitive ways and a bit as though I'm giving lectures. It’s just that I'm so absorbed by the subject. I can't talk about anything else except if I've learned it by heart. It's a bit as if someone asks me what I am doing and I tell them that I have been revising and learned how the structures of molecules differ and how all that is fascinating. I'll keep on going deep into the subject. Sometimes, I can even be obsessed with that. My mom thinks that I'm crazy because each time she comes in my room, I am walking around and just imagining things such as how I will make my art painting or I'll visualize the structure of molecules and keep talking to myself about how it is. Also, I imagine being with others, laughing and talking and being cool, because I am not like that. I pretend being with others and how it will be. My mum says that I used to socialize but the thing is, she used to bring me along with her and she would be gossiping with aunts while I was playing with cousins, but I never went along because I really enjoyed it. They never really understood what I was doing. I can talk with friends and all but it's just strange when some not very good friend comments when I notice something strange, like how two tree trunks have same patterns. That's so rare! I’m into music but sometimes it does happen that I analyze the tones and compare them with others. It’s just natural, is it alright?
I have been trying to be more sociable but it's as if I can't. I can't keep a conversation going without talking about more what I like in repetitive ways and a bit as though I'm giving lectures. It’s just that I'm so absorbed by the subject. I can't talk about anything else except if I've learned it by heart. It's a bit as if someone asks me what I am doing and I tell them that I have been revising and learned how the structures of molecules differ and how all that is fascinating. I'll keep on going deep into the subject. Sometimes, I can even be obsessed with that. My mom thinks that I'm crazy because each time she comes in my room, I am walking around and just imagining things such as how I will make my art painting or I'll visualize the structure of molecules and keep talking to myself about how it is. Also, I imagine being with others, laughing and talking and being cool, because I am not like that. I pretend being with others and how it will be. My mum says that I used to socialize but the thing is, she used to bring me along with her and she would be gossiping with aunts while I was playing with cousins, but I never went along because I really enjoyed it. They never really understood what I was doing. I can talk with friends and all but it's just strange when some not very good friend comments when I notice something strange, like how two tree trunks have same patterns. That's so rare! I’m into music but sometimes it does happen that I analyze the tones and compare them with others. It’s just natural, is it alright?
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