brittany, 18

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brittany, 18

They say everything get's easier within time. If that is true then why are all the walls around me crashing down, the pain grows stronger more and more everyday. The pain is no longer sitting within, slowly becoming the tears rushing down my face, how much more can one take? I lay here every night crying myself to sleep begging for your words or even less a phone call. Then again I guess blood means nothing now days, sad to say you've walked, my own mom....

brittany you sound very sad and depressed over your mom, which is a very difficult situation for anyone to cope with.
You did not specify what is the problem with your mom. Do not give up on her. Maybe your mom is going through a tough time right now.
Sometimes parents do not make the best decisions but it does not mean they don't love their children.
Maybe when you feel so sad and depressed you should call (child help hot line 1-800 422-4453) it is 24/7 and confidential.
Try to talk to one of your most trusted relatives about your feelings, it is always good to have someone to talk to.
You can also try writing all your feelings on paper, sometimes that helps, it is not good to keep everything bottled up inside of you.